Aaaaarrrggghhhh
I hated this year… and I have good reasons to.
Well, its so great have the second entry of your blog saying things that you hated… so the first thing you should know about me: I hate 2007.
This year was crap. Let just say that it all started with a bad New Years Eve Party. I had a major argument with my sister, that ended up involving the whole family: father, husband, niece, brother in law. Well, I’m not going deep in the matter because just remind the whole thing in details just makes me SICK! Ended up not enjoying at all my party (just to get in is expensive), the countdown to the new year was crying (of anger, believe me, I cry more of anger than anything else! Just get into my nerves and I cant help it) and I didn’t stay for very long because just see the faces of the people involved just made me want to jump in their throats…
Anyway, after that episode, I just got in 2007 with 2 major resolutions: NEVER share the same party with my sister again and NEVER wear black clothes. I know in most countries people just don’t care about the colour of the clothes they are going to wear, the whole thing is just BS. But here, in Brazil, the main colour to welcome the New Year is WHITE. I don’t know where the tradition comes from, but I just hate it. I don’t like white clothes, they just make you look fat. So I don’t wear it. Well… most of the time I don’t, cause in 2005’s party I wore a white dress… I shouldn’t have but I just enjoyed the opportunity to wear it because I have done a diet and I was kind of OK with my body (I say *kind* because 99% of women are not OK with their bodies and they never will… welcome to a woman’s life!). Just so you know, the dress is here, I just wore that only time, and its not fitting me anymore =((((( sniff!
Other colours are welcomed to wear as well, each one have its own meaning: Yellow, if you want fortune (MONEY!!!!); Green, for hope; Red, for passion, lust; Pink for true love, romance; Blue for tranquility; and now, for my personal list, Black, if you really want to mess up your new year. People over here have always said not to wear black, because the colour wouldn’t bring you positive thoughts, good stuff. I guess I should have listened…
Back to the 2007 Summary… the days that came after 1st of Jan were days of hell, until my sister goes back to UK, where she lives. After that, I thought that everything would be back to something close to normal life. Turn out I didn’t get much done, I had to go to a shrink cause of my depression that got worse, after all that happened, and she pumped up medicines that were helping, but got me very lazy and sleepy for the whole day. I was studying to get into a public job (here we do exams to get into one, the government pays better, its all they do good over here, but that’s another story) and I was catching up ok, than the worst thing ever happened: my father had a stroke.
It wasn’t a simple one, in fact he had 2, a mild one like doctors call, at home and a huge one that let him in a deep coma while he was already at the hospital. He stayed there for over 2 months, and it was horrible see him like that and could not anything to help. The feeling of being powerless in those situations is so devastating. He died in 18th of August. Since then I just feel lost and that I’m not going to make it through. He was a great father, despite all the disagreements we used to have (like all parents and children) I loved and still do, very very very much. I lost my mum 7 years ago. But my father was the one for me (you will understand that through out this blog).
Anyway, on top of my huge loss, I have to deal with every kind of disgusting people, that I just hope that they have their sweet piece in Hell when they do the favour to the world and disappear from it. I’m not going to go into the nasty details for 2 reasons: too depressive and disgusting and because its going to be too long to explain everything. But you might know what I’m talking about , if you have someone really close that died … paper work stuff. And still going as everyday something new and bad shows up, just to make my life greater…
So… how did your 2007 go? Good xmas? =PPP