Well, today I had a night of hell and God knows why. Sometimes I wake up around 3, 4 am and cant get to sleep anymore, sometimes it’s the opposite: I sleep until 12, 1 pm. I have sleep disorders. I wish I could feel tired and go to sleep well with no worries or issues hammed on my head. I think about a billion things before fall asleep and it gets me nightmares, unsettlement and when I wake up I feel like I have done about 10 miles worth of running or a train have passed over me. I wake up already feeling tired.

I do take medicines to sleep otherwise I don’t sleep at all. My mind wouldn’t let me. Some people say to me: “how a young 26 year old girl, like you, would have trouble to sleep? Its like you carrying the whole world over you and you even have no reasons to be like that”. To these people I should only reply showing the middle finger and saying a very bad word, if you know what I mean. But my parents gave me some manners, so my polite answer to that is silence.

I started to read a book last night, called The Secret. My auntie, who is very bright and extremely wise told me about this book, that she read it and she liked it. So I thought to give it a try. I’m enjoying the book so far, talks about the power of your thoughts, the Attraction Law, where similar things are attracted by each other. So if you have good thoughts, your going to attract good thoughts as well. And that your thoughts are the results of your present life. So, if you only have bad thoughts, the attraction law will bring more bad thoughts and the result of that is a miserable life. Well, I can say that all of this have a good foundation. It makes sense to me. So I’m going to concentrate on thinking good things for my life to see if I make it better. As I officially made 2008 a Good Year for me, nothing better than start put this theory in practice.

I’ll certainly talk more about this book along this blog.

Now the P.S.: As I said in the presentation of this blog I would talk about a lot of other things, such as girlie stuffs: makeup, shopping, jewellery, etc. Sorry, people, I’m in debt in this department, but I promise I’ll talk tomorrow about something along that area. Please, don’t be mad at me for not getting into it yet, but I will =)))

I hope you all have a good Friday!

XxX

So… what happens when you have someone you like but you just cant understand them and their ideas (a.k.a. cant stand their way of speak “I know everything, because I’m a superior ass so you just need to follow what I say”) ?

I have a case… hypothetically speaking… =P

- So… what do you want to get for xmas?

- Hmmmm… what I like the most… makeup… jewellery… diamonds, if you prefer…

- You need to check your priorities in life, I just think this is not right, too much money you waste, could re-check your priorities… that’s why I don’t have much of anything, just enough! Bla bla bla bla

- Good for you then, bitch!

On xmas day….

- Look what I got? A diamond solitaire ring, a gold diamond pendant, a silver ring…

And I’m the one who looks so bad??? F*** you!!!

You might think I’m saying that because I’m jealous… well, I am at a certain point! I have dreamed for a solitaire diamond ring since forever and the bitch comes with that speech from the Wise Book and I just need to shut up? Oh, I guess I had to, just because, despite everything, I like her most of the time…

See, it really bothers me about people. Some of them just makes speeches and don’t follow their own saying. I know everybody has done that before, but all the time? That’s the problem!!!! They talk like they are so intelligent, balanced, focused, and you are a complete piece of crap. And you really start to think that about yourself, like the most selfish person on the planet! If you start listen to everything they say, you end up back home crying in a complete depression!!! I say that because it happened to me (still do, eventually).

I guess I became a bit intolerant… just gets to a point some things get you out of order. And it scares me, because you end up getting fed up with this person to a point you don’t want to see them a mile away from you.

Anyway, I hope in 2008 I get calm and patient enough not to jump on people’s throats and then control myself better, because “tolerance is the key to a good social affair”… =P