Well, over here people consider that the year only begins AFTER Carnival. It’s a Tradition. The whole country, after 1^st of January, lives in a lazy mode, like they are saving their whole energy to spend in 4 days of pure non stop carnival parties. Lots of tourists come over to see one of the most famous things about Brazil and they absolutely love it. Of course, if you come from a cold country of North Hemisphere you obviously going to enjoy the warmth, the burning sun and party environment that involves Carnival. Its pure fun for them and I understand that. But, for me, it doesn’t work anymore. I used to like Carnival, but nowadays I just don’t have patience to crowded places and the hot, sweat people over me anymore. I like the music and stuff, but I don’t like being squashed like sardines in a tin. No, not for me, thanks. Also, Carnival is more like a single person kind of party: you can kiss whoever you want, how many people you want, wherever you want and everything is allowed in that period: sex, fun, kisses. And Fidelity definitely is not a word that belongs to the Carnival Vocabulary.  And as you all know, I’m married =PPP

I love my husband, despite he bugs me to death, but I think that’s the fun of our relationship: he picks on me all the time, for everything, a natural moaner that the most pleasure moments of his days are when he’s got something to call out my attention. But believe me, folks, he wouldn’t be able to live without me anymore, that you can count on =PPP

I have been with him to Carnival parties, he knows everything over here, I introduced him into that world, and he enjoyed, but, like me, we prefer the silence and quiet days that Carnival period give to us, no crowded streets, supermarkets, cinema, etc. Also, the fact that he is a workaholic helps very much =PPP

What am I doing now? As I told you before, I’m getting entertained by Big Brother Brasil show. Some people hate it, but its fun you watch them, its like rats in a laboratory cage where we can watch their behaviors in extreme situations. I like to observe human behaviors, change of personality, mind games, twist evil plans to put down your opponent, anything for one purpose: money. And that just show us where the human being can reach to get what they desire: money, fame and power. Of course there are people that don’t get corrupted by material things and get on the game just playing as themselves and firming their convictions and personality that they got over their life time. Other just over cross any limits to get what they want no matter what shows ahead of them: if it’s another human being or a bag of potatoes, for this person both things means the same.

Who said that reality shows doesn’t show us what human beings are in their essence, after all?

XxX

I didn’t update yesterday, I was enjoying the first day of 2008! Not that I have drunk much in the parties that I’ve been, but I just wanted to be lazy and enjoy =)

My New Years Eve party started at my auntie’s house, around 9pm. It was cool, we drank red wine (I LOVE red wine) and before we go back to my house, we emptied a bottle of champagne over there. I came back home to spend midnight with Lua, she is absolutely scared of fireworks. I also recorded 6 minutes of fireworks of a big party that was having in a club in front of my house (I was a member until be father passes away). That was very beautiful! We ceebrated the New Year drinking rosé champagne, that I love as well. After that, we went to my uncle’s, he lives at the same building as I do, 3 floors up me. We went there, drank some more champagne and spent some time with him.

I like him very much, he is one of my father’s brother and he just look like him so much in the way he speaks, body shape, face expressions. He also found out last year that he’s got lung cancer, we got so sad with the news, specially Dad, who cried a lot and got depressed by the news. Its not easy you see your family going away like that: my young 19 years old cousin and my other uncle both died in 2005. It was a big hit for us, but we managed to move on. Now in 2007 we find out my uncle with lung cancer and after the death of my father. So sad.

After my uncle’s we went back to my aunties, cause over there had lots of booze still hehehehe. It was a quiet but funny night, we came back home around 3:30am and went to bed.

Yesterday, I just stayed lazy at home and hubby working, for a change (joke, he is a workaholic, never stops).

At midnight of the 1^st day of 2008 I made a pray to this year be a good one, in all aspects.

The clothes I wore were in grey/silver and red. Very neutral, to reach all the other colours (my wish) with a bit more of passion =PPPP

Today I just am going to sort out some bills, write in my blog, which is making me happy, because I can share my thoughts with you, people.

I’m seriously thinking of putting my fireworks video in you tube, but its not great quality, far from that, because it was made in my camera, and also I had a dog glued on my legs scared to death that didn’t make my balance properly. If I do, I’ll post the link over here!!!

Happy 2008 to Everyone!!!

XxX

Aaaaarrrggghhhh

I hated this year… and I have good reasons to.

Well, its so great have the second entry of your blog saying things that you hated… so the first thing you should know about me: I hate 2007.

This year was crap. Let just say that it all started with a bad New Years Eve Party. I had a major argument with my sister, that ended up involving the whole family: father, husband, niece, brother in law. Well, I’m not going deep in the matter because just remind the whole thing in details just makes me SICK! Ended up not enjoying at all my party (just to get in is expensive), the countdown to the new year was crying (of anger, believe me, I cry more of anger than anything else! Just get into my nerves and I cant help it) and I didn’t stay for very long because just see the faces of the people involved just made me want to jump in their throats…

Anyway, after that episode, I just got in 2007 with 2 major resolutions: NEVER share the same party with my sister again and NEVER wear black clothes. I know in most countries people just don’t care about the colour of the clothes they are going to wear, the whole thing is just BS. But here, in Brazil, the main colour to welcome the New Year is WHITE. I don’t know where the tradition comes from, but I just hate it. I don’t like white clothes, they just make you look fat. So I don’t wear it. Well… most of the time I don’t, cause in 2005’s party I wore a white dress… I shouldn’t have but I just enjoyed the opportunity to wear it because I have done a diet and I was kind of OK with my body (I say *kind* because 99% of women are not OK with their bodies and they never will… welcome to a woman’s life!). Just so you know, the dress is here, I just wore that only time, and its not fitting me anymore =((((( sniff!

Other colours are welcomed to wear as well, each one have its own meaning: Yellow, if you want fortune (MONEY!!!!); Green, for hope; Red, for passion, lust; Pink for true love, romance; Blue for tranquility; and now, for my personal list, Black, if you really want to mess up your new year. People over here have always said not to wear black, because the colour wouldn’t bring you positive thoughts, good stuff. I guess I should have listened…

Back to the 2007 Summary… the days that came after 1^st of Jan were days of hell, until my sister goes back to UK, where she lives. After that, I thought that everything would be back to something close to normal life. Turn out I didn’t get much done, I had to go to a shrink cause of my depression that got worse, after all that happened, and she pumped up medicines that were helping, but got me very lazy and sleepy for the whole day. I was studying to get into a public job (here we do exams to get into one, the government pays better, its all they do good over here, but that’s another story) and I was catching up ok, than the worst thing ever happened: my father had a stroke.

It wasn’t a simple one, in fact he had 2, a mild one like doctors call, at home and a huge one that let him in a deep coma while he was already at the hospital. He stayed there for over 2 months, and it was horrible see him like that and could not anything to help. The feeling of being powerless in those situations is so devastating. He died in 18^th of August. Since then I just feel lost and that I’m not going to make it through. He was a great father, despite all the disagreements we used to have (like all parents and children) I loved and still do, very very very much. I lost my mum 7 years ago. But my father was the one for me (you will understand that through out this blog).

Anyway, on top of my huge loss, I have to deal with every kind of disgusting people, that I just hope that they have their sweet piece in Hell when they do the favour to the world and disappear from it. I’m not going to go into the nasty details for 2 reasons: too depressive and disgusting and because its going to be too long to explain everything. But you might know what I’m talking about , if you have someone really close that died … paper work stuff. And still going as everyday something new and bad shows up, just to make my life greater…

So… how did your 2007 go? Good xmas? =PPP